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I wasn't born for the rose and pearl.
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| there are bridges you crossed you didn't know you crossed until you crossed them. |
[Saturday,
April 8 06
9.32pm] |
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Wicked - Thank Goodness |
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I am, of course, none other than blank verse.
I don't know where I'm going, yes, quite right;
And when I get there (if I ever do)
I might not recognise it. So? Your point?
Why should I have a destination set?
I'm relatively happy as I am,
And wouldn't want to be forever aimed
Towards some future path or special goal.
It's not to do with laziness, as such.
It's just that one the whole I'd rather not
Be bothered - so I drift contentedly;
An underrated way of life, I find. |
What Poetry Form Are You?
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Amusing. Most of my poetry is in blank (free) verse. :o) I think rhyming makes things cheesy. haha.
Soooo. Haven't been on. Been grounded. Had a party, parents found out. Got grounded. Off grounding. Death in the family. Took ACTs this morning. Not fighting with Conger anymore. Havent' been too bad. Getting to be friends with some of my teachers. Kinda weird. Hate Ms. Woz.
My life in a nutshell. I stopped talking to Conger telling him I was going to bed nearly half an hour ago...and I got caught up in looking back in people's journals to see what's been happening.
Oh yeah, and Me, my mom, Marie and Courtney are all seeing Wicked on June 1st at 1. I get my hair cut the tuesday after Easter. Not sure what I'm gonna do yet. I was thinking about doing some layers and faceframe, but now that I think about it I think I might end up doing something more drastic...like cut 6 inches off. Dono. We shall see.
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Don't lose sight of who you are.
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[Thursday,
March 2 06
10.08pm] |
I don't get it. I hoenstly don't fucking get it. I'm sorry I don't believe the same things you do. Get over it. Believe it or not the world does not revolve around you, I did not do anything of this to intentionally piss you off. And you know what I was really smart about everythign I did. Ask anyone who was there. You have no right to tell me I'm stupid. You need to learn that you can't control what your friends do and how they act. Get over it. Honestly. If I want to go do something you don't necessarily agree with, get over it. It doesn't make me stupid, it makes me my own person. If you're gonna make me feel like shit like this everytime something happens you don't like, then I want nothing to do with you. N-O-T-H-I-N-G. I don't need you making me feel like shit, you would think being my best friend you would learn I get enough of that as-is.
This is why I love Bruce Pell--
xLovexIsxBlissx: i have a question for you
BigPimpinBruce67: shoot it babe
xLovexIsxBlissx: was i being stupid last night. with how much i was drinking and what i was drinking and everything?
BigPimpinBruce67: not at all
xLovexIsxBlissx: because i have my best friend telling me how stupid i am and telling me i'm dumb
BigPimpinBruce67: you were cool last night
BigPimpinBruce67: does he drink?
xLovexIsxBlissx: no
xLovexIsxBlissx: he's uber straightedge
BigPimpinBruce67: fuck that
BigPimpinBruce67: thats what narrow minded people say to people who drink
BigPimpinBruce67: you were totally mature last night
xLovexIsxBlissx: well atleast someone thinks so
BigPimpinBruce67: and thats from the b man
BigPimpinBruce67: straight up
BigPimpinBruce67: the thing with straight egde people is that it's your choice to not drink
BigPimpinBruce67: and just because they dont drink
xLovexIsxBlissx: they think no one else should
BigPimpinBruce67: does not mean they have the right to tell people not to or shit like that
BigPimpinBruce67: exactly!
BigPimpinBruce67: but everyonce and a while
BigPimpinBruce67: you find the real straigh egders
BigPimpinBruce67: who are open minded and cool about the drinking shit
BigPimpinBruce67: but he's gotta ease up on his beliefs
Some parts were cut out, but you get the idea.
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| an update :o) |
[Friday,
February 24 06
3.36pm] |
Hmm. I've had a fun break. From Sunday to Wednesday I was stuck on the couch. Had a really bad cold and tonsilitius. Yesterday went to help Ms. Ohrt paint and gett he stage ready for broadway. It was fun. A bunch of choir kids, the rent soundtrack, and a stage. :o) Hung out with Conger and Eric afterwads. Ran around trying to find white electric tape, then watched Rent. Eric left and Conger and i just watched Tom and Jerry for a few hours. I keep going into really bad coughing fits though. I can't laugh without coughing which is kinda a pain. heh. I dono. I'm bored. Going to Gaba's later with Tom and Eric.
I'm gonna start looking for another job soon. I haven't had any hours in three weeks. Kinda pisses me off. My next check is going to be like, 15$. If anyone has any ideas to places I could apply it would be uber helpful.
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[Sunday,
February 19 06
11.33pm] |
What if I was there?
What if I was crying?
And what if I'm finding this all too hard?
And what if I can't do it anymore?
And what if I can't seem to make myself live by the things that have kept me alive this long?
And what if you lose me?
And what if I'm gone?
And what if I completely run out of what if's?
And what if you don't even care?
And what if this was your last chance to say something to me?
What would you say?
Would you even care?
Would you even try to make amends?
Would you even notice what you did to hurt me?
Would you even let it sink it?
Would you cry?
Would you miss me?
Would you even notice when I was gone?
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| The good thing is it takes bad days to know when you have a good one. |
[Monday,
February 13 06
9.15pm] |
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RelientK-I So Hate Consequences |
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Today was such a Monday. Horrible really. As of right now I'm dropping journalism and t.a.ing for Ake and Franny. And if you think I'm dumb...I don't care I don't want to hear it. I'm sick of people sitting there telling me everything I do is wrong. I don't think my mom or family for that matter has said anything nice to me in the past week. Everytime they start a conversation...it's always about what I'm doing wrong. (Which isn't helping current matters.) Valentines day sucks. I hate it. Just a crappy excuse for those who are already happy with a boyfriend/girlfriend to feel happier about it and then people like me who are single and miserable to get even more depressed and upset about it. Gee thanks. What a nice way to spend my day. I dono. All of this is getting to be way too much. I'll be lucky if I make it to winter break. Cross your fingers for me. I've been writing a lot lately. Not just my usual randomness, like full out poetry and shit. Haven't really written this much since 8th grade which somewhat worries me. :o/ I have to try to look cute tomorrow. Won't work though.
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| I am the queen of run on sentences. |
[Tuesday,
February 7 06
10.50pm] |
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Nothing like hanging out with the best friend laying around watching t.v. and completely pigging out on junk food so much that you get sick and completely crash from the lack of sugar an hour later.
And then driving alone at night is always nice too, at least for me.
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Don't lose sight of who you are.
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| cuz i'm crazy like the rest of us |
[Monday,
February 6 06
8.40pm] |
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Jason Mraz-Please Don't Tell Her |
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Well. I think everyone liked my hair. :o) Uhm had a really weird dream last night. Did scheduling stuff today in 6th hour. I'm trying to take econ this summer in summer school so I can have Ake and be his TA, that solves my freaking out in an earlier entry. So because of that I have to write a letter to Mrs. Sands requesting to be put in summer school and then hope she'll let me do it. A few different people said my letter was good so I'm hoping.
Was talking to Angela about how weird it is that we're gonna be seniors next year. I'm scared. Honestly. I can't wait to get away but I'm not ready just yet. Oh well still got another year.
So I'm taking the ACT April 8 at Macomb Comm. College. If anyone else signs up and is taking it there lemme know and we can drive together or something.
I dono. That's all.
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| i close my eyes, let the whole thing pass me by. |
[Wednesday,
February 1 06
8.46pm] |
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Relient K |
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Hm. Today was, boring really. I've got something wrong with my stomach. I dono. Talked to Akerley and jokingly told him I should go in and teach his class for him, so he told me to pick an hour and a day and I could teach any time I wanted. I might not be taking Journalism next year so I can be a T.A. for Ake and Franny. I don't know. I'm thinking about this whole thing. I don't want to drop show choir. Ideally that would be the thing to do so I can keep journalism. I dono. I might just not take an english, cuz I'd be T.A ing for two english classes and I would still have Journalsim. Buuuut I wanna be in AP Seminar. I dono. I don't know I don't know. I'm wishing I didn't take spanish freshmen year. That messed me up. I didn't end up taking Spanish 2, and then I wouldn't have to take gym and health my junior and senior year. :o( I'll figure it out. Talk to Belli and see if we can find a loop hole. Ake said there is a slight chance that next year he'll be able to teach journalism if we still have it. Part of me is hoping we don't have it so it will just be like an afterschool club to publish the paper then I can t.a. and everything. It would just work out beter, but then again I don't know how much support the paper would get and if anyone would even care enough to actually write for it if they weren't getting a grade. I don't even want to go into a journalistic career. I don't know why I'm fighting so much for this and such. I think I might not take it next year. But if I do take it next year I have a guarantee'd Editor-in-chief position. And I wouldn't have certain people to deal with. I don't know. Oh man. I need to stop thinking of this. :o( But, I should figure if I want to drop show choir or not. I know I don't want to but that seems the most reasonable. GUUUHHHHH I don't know. I'm rambling wayyyyy too much about this.
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Don't lose sight of who you are.
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| you played dead, but you never bled. |
[Friday,
January 27 06
10.22pm] |
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REO Speedwagon-Keep On Lovin' You |
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Ehn. Today wasn't too bad. School was...school. I need this weekend like whoa. Had to take apart my drumset when I got home. I guess we're not gonna sell it, just put it off to the side for now. Got my check. Actually put ALL of it in the bank. I was kinda proud of myself but I have enough money with babysitting. Bought some clothes. Three really cute shirts and a tanktop. Came home and went to babysit. Decided I kinda like the rabbit. haha.
I don't know. That's all. I still have no idea what I'm going to do with this.... We'll see I guess.
I wanna take tango and ballroom dancing lessons. Any guy interested in doing that with me in all seriousness lemme know. :o)
I need a car. Badly. :o( I need more money. haha.
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